long time no type

well. sorry for that little holdup from march, ha. guess i never really got back to this.

it's erin still, alas. i haven't seen jamie in months. haven't seen bay. i did see julienne though, he's actually back in town. we're both enrolled in night classes at our old highschool. we're trying to get our lives back on track.

these last few months have been... just strange. i've been with jamie almost my entire life. it's just so strange her not being here. i wish she would come home. hell, i wish this hadn't happened in the first place.

it's been a little over a year since things got off track. juls doesn't even remember much anymore... or he's lying. i don't know. he came home back in march, saying he just woke up one day in that old town in pennsylvania. said he was confused. called a friend in new york to get him.

there wasn't much more to it than that. he's different. but that's understandable. 

honestly, i've been debating posting here. our lives are finally going back to normal. we just want to move on. i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who read, everyone who cared, helped, anything. jamie loved the help. i know she did. if she ever shows up again, then i'll be back. until then, this is my last post. thank you, really.

jamie, i love you. our anniversary was coming up soon. i'm sorry we can't spend it together. sorry we couldn't last year, i was a stupid bitch about other girls. i'm sorry we broke up, sorry for all the stress. you were my first love, and still are.

we were a perfect sonnet.

love, 

Erin Marie Martinez

Home Sweet Home

I'm back in Indiana with Erin. We got in yesterday, driving since the 26th. It's nice to be home, although dad doesn't know I'm in yet. He's at work for the night, and won't be home until about midnight. I'll be leaving by then, hopefully.

He doesn't need to worry. I've got a note for him.

Erin's got family down south in Florida, so we may be leaving to go. I've got to wait for her to get back here. She went to go visit her mom while we're in town, although this may be a horrible idea... I'm afraid the police may know we're back... could hold us here. We've been accounted as missing for almost a month now...

I don't even know how to tell Julienne's aunt that he's gone.
I can't say he's dead, but he's not living.

I want to save him. Is there a way to save the hollowed...?



I miss him. I miss him so much.
I'm sorry this happened to you, Juli.

Update from the Road

I'm right outside of Youngstown, Pennsylvania. I've been driving since about 10am, stopping only to piss. Getting food right now in a local pizza place, outside typing this. I must look silly...

I've done some quick research on this Centralia place. Apparently, a site of a large underground mine fire? Some pictures I found look a bit spooky. Would be a perfect place to visit with Erin and Julienne, if it weren't for the fact Jul's gone a bit... out of it.

Oh, who am I kidding, he's been fucking hollowed. :(

I don't know if I should go to the town tonight, for fear of it being dark in about an hour. That, and the town's also apparently gotten the name Silent Hill since the movie was a shit remake of a game.

Silent Hill scares the pants off me, if I may point out.

I'm going to talk to a couple locals once I get further into Youngstown. I may just stay here for the night.
I've called Erin back. I hope she returns the favor.

My foods done, so I should probably post this and get inside, it's fucking cold out here.
Here's hoping I'm not killed before this ordeal's over.

-Jamie

Happy birthday, Julienne.




19 years for nothing.

Julienne left me here. He took Erin.


They skipped town without me.



My friends abandoned me.

Rising Expedition?

So, this week has been anti-climatic.

I called my brother earlier, and, oh boy big suprise, no answer. That still leaves a major part of my issues unsolved. The other part, of course, being the 8 foot tall man that no one can see, who is also stalking me.
Yeah, that one.

Tomorrow's the big day. Julienne's got everything ready to go, fuck, he even had new tires put on yesterday to his car (damn you Indiana and your perfect timing of shit weather). All in all, we're ready to get out of here. I'm strangely excited... but I've got a sickening feeling. Probably just nerves...

I'll keep this remotely short; nothing exciting's happened yet, Tall Guy's still been outside my window (although he's stopped singing and resorted to just watching) every night. No one ever sees him, and yet I live on a main roadway. Fuck my life? Yeah, fuck my life.

Erin's become secluded from us it feels like. I think she knows we plan on leaving... I swear, if Juls told her, his head may as well be bitten off. Either way, all she's done this past week has been casting me looks of despair; if I try to confront her, she shruggs it off as being tired or overworked. Which, I doubt. She works at a damn TacoBell up the road. All the customers either come in stoned throughout the night, or families with little shits for kids. Alas, I digress.

I still need to make her and my dad notes. Ugh.


....

Well, TallGuy's tapping for my attention now. I've given it to him, and all he does is either stare, or look off awkwardly (like my dreams). Tall Guy, for a damned stalker, you are quite the peculier one...
Goodnight, young Anons. I''ll either be back tomorrow or Saturday~

-Jamie

Sleep nights

Today was nicer than usual.

I went to my cousin's house for the day after school, she drove us over. We baked cookies and talked of petty drama. It was a nice distraction, but I know he was watching.

He was once again singing last night. Same song, same deaf tone, same shit. Is it odd I'm starting to get used to the Tall Guy...? He's almost homey, in an odd way. And by odd, I mean terrifying.

I'm so sleepy right now, this will probably be a small update. Just clarifying I'm not dead yet, even though it's only been a day. Friday is rapidly approaching. Juls and I are anticipating it with mixed emotions.
I'm just ready for anything at this point.

I've also put the operator symbol onto my tank tops and jacket. I may look nutty, but I feel a sense of security through it. Here's hoping it's not false (which I'm sure it's not; M stated it as a protection means. M, if you're reading this, you're seriously helping a girl out with your advice, thanks).

I'm going to sleep. Sleep nicely, anonymous readers~
-Jamie

(it appears my blogs post at the wrong times. It's midnight on the clock here, I should change my timezone, eventually)

A Plan

(NOTE: for the rest of the week, I'm going to closely monitor what is going on. I'll record shit down here everynight until Friday)

Today at school, I noticed some things.

Tall Guy (I refuse to call him the Slenderman; I can't do it. Plus, he seems more wacky and fun this way! -sarcasm-) seems to understand that school is my time not to be screwed with. When I left this morning, he was still outside my window, in clear view! Just standing. Maybe watching. He made no signs of following me, and it felt nice to have a somewhat safe haven. For the time, at least. When I returned home, he was gone, which while in itself was nice, I felt unsettled.

Julienne and I discussed briefly our plan for Friday:

-school like normal
-comeback to my house to pick up some bags and other items
-go to his house to do the same
-leave a note (nothing suicidal, we want to come back, eventually) with an undisclosed location
-get the hell out of town

...in my head, it seemed more realistic. I'm going to think of this as only a roadtrip to get away from stress.

Disregarding the fact it's supernatural stress.

His aunt is out for the week until Sunday, so by the time she sees our note, we'll be long gone.
I'm still debating to leave dad a note. I may be 18, but he will still worry to hell and back.

Shit, that reminds me. Jul's birthday is the 21st. He's turning 19, and even if we're still dealing with Tall Guy, he's getting a birthday! Even if it may be a car party... hahaa.

Well, I hope our plan will work. I really hope so.


More than anything I just wish this would go away.

-Jamie

PS: I'm sure Tall Guy missed me at work, so I'm assuming he'll be back for more lullabys tonight. Joy.